"Yea I heard you..."

The Calm...

I can say this is the happiest I’ve been in a while, as much as the moment is mesmerizing, I can’t help but to ponder the thoughts of this being over soon. The inevitable—obviously… I guess this is what happens when so much bad happens to you, it becomes fairly hard to enjoy the moments, My niece is growing though. My sister is as beautiful as she was when I last saw her. It’s pretty obvious my mom hasn’t smiled and laughed this hard and that big in a while—Never mind whatever she had in her cup. Oh and my brothers are just as successful—as they’ve always been. I’m slightly jealous of mike man,...

Even Still...

No Plot Twist...

But who are you to feel right? So what if something is going on with you, no one cares enough of you aren't making him or her happy. So why should you? Weird— How you can feel so alone at times but surrounded by human beings on the daily. I guess it's the mental, or the emotion. Or how you think none is in your corner but you feel it too, so in a sense, regardless of what's actually happening… It still never really is. "GET OVER IT!" The story of my life, it seems. How dare you wear your heart on your sleeve? No one will sulk with you! They don't care that much. So get over it. Excepting that you...

It's Pure here...

Inevitable...

It's way too obvious when I'm uncomfortable... So I just speak up before hand in hopes that it's not to Late... to save face and for my sake. Do I actually want to be there? Here? Hell, anywhere? The solitude is so safe for me. Comfortable in the sense that I won't make others feel uncomfortable simply 'cause of my lack of comfort—really hope that made sense... A risk is random, but inevitable of course—I planned it out over and over. The scenarios never match... Guess I love to prepare for every possible outcome. Always feared doing something for no reason at all. It's just that time is so precious...

Lawrenceville autumn end...

Be clear...

Perhaps my outlook may be a tad different... In a sense that everything that glitters is exactly that, Glitter... Fabricating the surface to aid your vision on the outside beauty never minding what lies beneath... Who cares though, it's pretty good looking so it must indeed be, Just that… Or that the grass is always greener on the other side... Because we want it to be or it looks to be just because the other side looks better than the original… What about creating new grass instead of the running to the other side? Take pride in falling... Building from the ground up as progression is a blessing...

Essentials...

The climb...

The power of those who sought comfort in the bottom… To wait their turn because they know their time is coming—you should fear thee. It’s scary when you have been knocked down so many times but not once were you defeated. You’re blessed with that mind… Know this because you might be surprised to learn that most people don’t possess this will power… Knowledge is power, honesty is power, and truth is power…. Word to the wise, you tell me you know the struggle, ok true… But to understand the experience is ton understand it to its entirety. How do you work that? It’s not our fault if you don’t relate—...